Current mood:	curious
Current music:	Goong S OST

Random thoughts, a quick entry before more homework.
Today I cleaned my room and did a lot of laundry. I did some homework yesterday. I ate dinner with my friends this evening.

And all of this is what makes me feel alive. The drama makes me want to be a good person, but the things that really happened are what make me feel like I may someday achieve that goal. I don't know that I can become a doctor, a teacher, a lawyer, or anything else helpful. But at the very least, I'm becoming human little by little. And that's a start.

Sure my family's been cut completely out of the picture for now, and friendships are practically on hiatus. In fact, I may end up becoming a recluse/hermit as a result of my efforts to become a real person. But I'm more satisfied with myself right now than I've ever been in my conscious memory. And that has to mean something, right?

Next goals? Figure out what I want to do (what is it I care about in this world? what can I do that makes my life have meaning?). Go to the gym. Apply for my summer plans. Get in touch with people again. Develop such a busy schedule I can't answer my phone. Become smarter and happier and more beautiful than I've ever been before. Master Chinese. Master happiness. Succeed at family. Love someone as much as I possibly can?

We'll see.